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    Life Update

    So… we’re though October and half way through November which in all honesty already feels like it’s over since Thanksgiving is next week, and I’ve yet to run more than a mile. Still.

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    Perhaps it’s because we’re adding another pup to the pack next April, and that’s slowed me down again. We found out I was pregnant in August right after I broke my ankle and after that healed I wasn’t feeling great. Back to morning sickness and constantly gagging which didn’t help my running game. Finally the ankle was feeling almost 100% again and I was getting back into the swing of things butttt when I tried to run it just felt… awkward. To be honest, it’s pretty hard to not run again and to know that I won’t be running for a while. I went through a lot of the same feelings I went through when I was pregnant with C and felt angry, disappointed and upset. Now I’m trying to focus on the positive and I feel like even though I still have some downer days, I have gone more into the acceptance phase of grieving the loss of running once again.

    Hopefully, I can run again in less than a year, so I’m looking forward to that day and trying to allow myself to enjoy the break. I also know that it will help make sure that my ankle is fully healed before I run again. Continue reading…

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    Comparisons.

        

    Before I even start… this photo is from January of 2015… Though I wish it was recent, it’s not!

    In January of 2015, I was asked to be in a Dicks Sporting goods campaign. I was so flattered, shocked and excited. I thought I was in horrible shape and, of course, that I looked fat but I showed up, got glammed up and donned the outfits they wanted me in. I tried to suck it in and do my best to look thin. The photos came out great and they were really happy with them, but when I looked at the photos all I could think to myself was, “Well, what if this was different? Or if this part of my body was more toned and in shape. I should have done this and this. I could have not eaten that treat and been in better shape. I could have worked out more.” I focused so much on how much I didn’t like the way I looked, instead of focusing on the fact I was asked to be in the campaign and how amazing that was. Now, looking at these photos now I realize I was in great shape and how I should have been happy with how I looked, because we are just a little bit (read: A LOT) away from where I was then. Ha!

    A funny things is, I also didn’t know I was 7 weeks pregnant at the photo shoot! I was focusing on training for Boston and trying to get my body back up to running higher mileage and didn’t understand why I felt so sluggish. Now, a year after having a baby, I’m back to being overly critical of myself. When I was pregnant it was hard for me to accept my changing body. I was hard on myself and unhappy with how I looked. Now, I have a fun little baby to take care of and fitting in workouts is hard, but I need to give myself a chance to get back to where I was and not focus on how flabby my arms are or the changes my stomach went through. I need to give myself grace and keep working hard and realize this is just a different time in my life.   Continue reading…

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    Happy 1st Birthday C!

    This past year has been such a blur, in the best way possible. My life has changed drastically since having a baby. I don’t run as much as I used too, I don’t sleep as much as I used to and many of my days revolve around watching Daniel Tiger, Curious George, playdates and naptimes. Before I had Cora, I didn’t know how to take care of a child, much less how I would be as a Mom. Over the past year there were many challenges, moments where I had no idea what I was doing, and I asked many, many questions, but we made it. There was a lot of unsolicited advice before I had her and throughout the first year and I guess that’s just how parenting is. There seems to be so much negativity and judgement that comes along with being a parent, and knowing you’re doing everything you believe is right for your child is so important. Continue reading…

    August & September Recap

    Oh August… a month where I did pretty much nothing active at all and September… another month of nothing but healing. Because of a pretty bummer foot injury at the end of July, these past two months, were filled with doing a whole lot of nothing active. I couldn’t walk very far in the boot during the entire month of August and in the beginning of September because it was uncomfortable and also my doctor recommended I try to stay off of it as much as possible. It was really eye opening to see how much I usually do walk in a week, whether with B and C to the park, or with friends or just by myself in the evening to get out of the house. It was also a bummer because I couldn’t go to camp with my team and was very limited coaching wise. Continue reading…

    July Recap

     

    Perhaps you noticed my blog was down for oh, a few weeks, and well… after quite a few hosting problems, I’m BACK! July was a semi good month, that ended pretty poorly. I started out doing really well at the beginning of the month! Up until July 29th… when I broke my foot running. Such a bummer, but onto the good stuff and when I was actually running.

    I was at 40 miles for the month and running well. I had started back to running with the team and was feeling good, even if I was running slower than I had expected. I also had fit in 3 runs every week, besides the week we were on a family vacation, which I was happy with.

    I also fit in an 8 miler, which was on target for at least part of my lake run during our upcoming cross country training camp that was to take place in August. The 8 miler was the longest run I’ve completed since having C and it was a great feeling to actually get into mileage again. It wasn’t easy and I definitely had to push myself mentally, but I felt really accomplished when I got home and I knew it would help build my base as I wanted to run longer mileage once a week.

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