This past week, I kept opening up my blog and just had nothing to write. I don’t know why, I had things to say, running was happening and going well and I had ideas but every time I looked at the blank screen all my words just left my mind and I couldn’t write. The week after Ragnar I got in some sweet runs, including two double runs, one with the team and one in the evening with Mary Kate. I haven’t run far in a while and I have been contemplating what is next for me. I know I train well during the summer and love the heat so that’s something I’ve been thinking about. I really wanted to get through Ragnar to make a decision and to figure out where I can go from here. I’ve been running faster and better than I have in years and I feel good running harder paces.
Yet at the same time, track has started to take it’s toll on me. My heart belongs to cross country and the all day track meets are long and draining. When the kids run, I do feel inspired and I love watching them improve when they give it 100%, but when they’re only giving 65%, it’s hard to make myself give 100% to them. I miss cross country and the long miles in the fall. I had to take a moment last week to really reset my mind and remind myself that I need to have patience and be encouraging, just like I always tell the kids to be. I was just not being positive and little things were getting to me. It’s hard to be a coach sometimes!
This Easter was great, we had my family over and though I have been sick with some kind of flu since Friday evening, and now I have an eye infection and am having to wear my glasses until Thursday, I’m looking toward the future and setting new goals. I’m taking time to really make sure I’m ready to commit to whatever the goal may be. We have a few big things happening this year, including my best friends wedding, bachelorette party, bridal shower, four more weddings, I’m working on planning our 10 year class reunion and a big trip to CABO that I’ve been working out a lot for. Though through it all, I know that running will keep me sane and I keep going back to what really will be next. I’m so blessed and I’m so thankful I am able to run daily, and my clear mind tells me that I need it to keep going.
Here’s to figuring out what is next!
So it’s time again… Time to run a race! It is actually a somewhat unfamiliar feeling because I haven’t run in a longer race environment myself since last December, and the last short distance race I did was at the beginning of February. Even though I’ve been running a lot, it has been a while since I actually went out there and ran hard, and that’s exactly what I plan to do this weekend. Afterwards? It’s nap time :)
If you’re unfamiliar with Ragnar, it’s a relay that starts in one city and ends in another. My Teammates and I, Team Sparkle, are running from Huntington Beach to San Diego. Most teams have a team of 12, and because we are doing the ‘Ultra’ Relay, we are a team of six. You ride around in a van without really stopping or sleeping and you just keep running.
Last year, it was my first time ever running Ragnar and I was terrified of the unexpected. This year I feel a bit more prepared, and though I didn’t do many double days of training, I do feel that the running I’ve been doing lately is more quality and more consistent which will hopefully help with the double days. I have been keeping all my miles well under 9 minutes as well, which will hopefully keep me at my goal of right around 8:45 pace.
One thing that is different than a ‘normal’ racing environment is the team aspect and that factor is one of the most intimidating pieces of the whole Ragnar Race to me. When you run a race, you’re running alone. The only person you’re letting down is yourself and you only can blame yourself. I like to keep that responsibility, so I know who I’m depending on and when something goes wrong I can only point the finger back at me. It’s scary for me to allow other people to depend on me and for me to depend on them.
Another incredible aspect of the race is the fact that each mile is paired up with a girl who has Rett’s Syndrome. I have learned about some of the girls that I’m ‘paired up’ with for each mile and their stories are so motivating to me and I will constantly be thinking about them each mile. It is an honor to me to be a part of this team and run for each of these girls who cant. Read more about how we’re running 195 miles for 195 girls here. After this race, I’m looking forward to planning for fall, but I really want to enjoy this weekend and raise awareness for Girl Power 2 Cure! Here we go!