A fresh start is always nice and there is nothing like a new year to set new goals with a new mindset. When I look back on my first post of 2015 – I had NO clue I was pregnant and it’s funny to see what I wanted to do this past year! It was a hard year for me running wise because I was sick for 20 weeks being pregnant and had to wait over 10 weeks to get the clear to work out again and I still don’t feel 100%. I also had to forgo the Boston Marathon, a dream that I qualified for, which made the first half of the year very difficult for me. I was angry that I couldn’t run in general and so disappointed that I couldn’t run that race. Now that she’s here, I feel a lot better about missing it but do have hopes to qualify again and NOT get pregnant before the race ;)
Over 2014 and some of 2015, I have found what kind of running mindset works for me. Working to make each run count. I don’t do well running miles without a purpose. When I create a plan and goals I keep “Running With Purpose” in mind because that is how I train the best. Even though in 2015 I only ran/walked 302 miles, I am happy I was healthy throughout my pregnancy and did what I could instead of giving up and laying on the couch all day.
In 2016 I want to focus on getting back into shape and not being scared of being sore or how out of shape I am right now. One of the biggest things I struggle with right now is just going to run. Once I’m out there, I’m usually fine. I can’t exactly pinpoint why, but every time right before I run I get so nervous and it almost gives me anxiety. I know I need to build my confidence in my running and believing in myself. I need to relax and enjoy the time I have alone, or with the stroller and be proud of myself for getting out there. Every thing will come back, with time. I’m going to break my workout/fitness/running goals down to be monthly goals instead of a huge daunting task. One big goal I have is to run the Lake at Camp in August with the Team. It’s a 16 mile loop at a high altitude and I really want to be in shape to enjoy that run and complete it! I missed camp this past year and am really looking forward to going with the team this year.
I know I’m a very competitive person. Example: When I had Cora, my doctor told me, “I think you’ll push for an hour to an hour and a half and you’ll have your baby.” I told him, “No, I can do this faster than that.” 30 minutes later she was out. When I first started coaching, I was so much slower. By the end of the 2nd season, I was running some of the fastest times of my adult life. Most of the time this competitive mindset works out in my favor, but sometimes, when I’m feeling down about myself, seeing other people run so much faster and further than I am running I get disappointed. It’s interesting because I usually don’t have the comparison guilt problem, but with running I do it to myself. I know I need to let that go and run for me and be proud that I’m getting it done.
I have also bought a few things to make it easier for me. A few cute hats to wear so that I’m not paranoid about my dirty hair when I don’t have time to wash it. Two new sports bras to keep things in check as I have a little bit of weight left to lose. A new armband for my phone so when I’m alone I have something to hold it and I can listen to music.
I know getting out there is most important right now, and creating reachable goals will help motivate me. I’m going to be writing more and tracking my progress so that I can look back when I’m feeling down and see how far I’ve come.
So my goals for January are:
1. Sign up for a race – I know this will motivate me to run more throughout the week and keep me from giving into the anxiety that I don’t want to do it.
2. Run 3 days a week – It sounds like a small goal but with our new schedule, I will be so happy to get out there and run 3 days a week. My hope is to do 4, but I’m starting out with 3 with one of those being without the stroller and a bit longer.
3. Eat Healthy – this is hard for me because I forget to eat throughout the day sometimes. I need to get back into my routine of sandwiches, carrots, yogurts and smoothies!
4. Blog 3 times a week – Writing and running makes me happy. I need to blog more about my life no matter what I’m blogging about.
Here’s to a great 2016 and all that it may hold!