Saying Goodbye to Boston

Saying Good Bye to BostonThis is a blog post that I definitely didn’t want to write and as I wrote it, the tears came back. After a lot of deliberation and weighing my options, I have decided not to run the 2015 Boston Marathon. As many of you know, I qualified back in May of last year, and was ecstatic, thinking that I would never have the opportunity to qualify. I registered and got in and B and I immediately booked our trip there. I started training in December and January. If you read my recent post, at the end of January B and I found out I was seven weeks pregnant. This explained my slower running throughout the month and me feeling ‘off’. After the news and approval from the doctor, I spent all of February trying to get in my long runs in and focusing on my mileage. It was very difficult and I was miserable every time I ran, which was very hard for me. I’ve never not liked to run and struggling so much, feeling horrible and not enjoying it was a new feeling for me. I gagged a lot and could only run very short distances.

At the beginning of March, I thought that I would work on starting over and not worrying about my miles as much, and I was entering my second trimester, where everything was magically suppose to get better. I tried to run and every time I ran I would only make it 4 miles before I would walk and not be able to run anymore. The first mile would be okay, after a bit of gagging, I would feel fine, the second mile would be great and then third mile would be fine, but right as I hit 3.5 miles, my body would just stop running, so I would finish the four miles and walk the rest of the way home. Just the other day I felt so good and was over zealous thinking I could easily do a 6 miler! I did a longer loop and just like normal, I had to stop at 4 and walk the 2 miles home.

After three weeks of attempting to run more than 4 miles and not succeeding, I started to grasp the reality that I was not going to be able to run Boston this year. I knew it was always a possibility in the back of my mind, but never thought it would actually happen and I would have to make this decision. I thought I would feel better or at least be able to run 10-13 miles and then I could walk the rest of the race, but four miles is a very, very long distance from 26.2 miles. I also have a very sensitive stomach (I take 3 Imodium when I run a full marathon) when I run and knowing I didn’t had the opportunity to practice fueling while pregnant also helped me make my decision. It was a very, very emotional decision and the first time I talked about it out loud with some one I could barely even say the words because I knew it was finally true. I wouldn’t be at the starting line on April 20th.

It has been hard because it’s the first question people ask me when they find out I’m pregnant. “What about Boston?!” and recently, I’ve had to hold back tears telling them about how I cannot run this year. As I talked about it with friends and family, they are all supportive either way but I know that at the end of the day if I cannot run more than 4 miles, it would not be a wise decision to attempt to run a full marathon. As the days continued to rapidly count down towards the race I knew I had to make a decision one way or the other. I was really upset at the time, but things have gotten easier and knowing that I qualified and have a new marathon PR still means so much to me. I know I wanted to run Mountains to Beach and leave everything out there, which I did and that race will always have such a special place in my heart. This year, April 20th, will probably be one of the hardest Bostons for me to ever hear about, but I know there will always be more marathons to run and I do hope to run it one year in the future, this just isn’t my year.

I know in the big scheme of things that come September there will be a lot of joy in my life from our new family member and my new running partner, and I know long-term this decision is the best one. After I finally made the decision that I wasn’t going to run and we canceled our hotel room and flight to Boston, I feel so much relief and I knew that I was making the right decision. It definitely stings a lot, but my running lately has felt a little bit more free, instead of the pressure of running with the mindset that I’m so far away from my training plan and how am I ever going to run Boston, now I can enjoy my 4 milers and just be happy I can run at all.

I really appreciated the comments on my last post and the people who reached out to me regarding my decision. I also found these two articles (1, 2)Ā  to be really, really helpful. Here’s to all the four milers I have left to run until September and to those running Boston, cross the finish line with pride!


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Training for Boston… Where I’m At

I started getting back into the swing of training in January. After having a decent base I knew with a few tempo runs I would be able to get right back to where I was and it would help build my confidence. I was motivated and looking forward to training again and I kept the finish line in April on my mind to keep me motivated through the yucky runs. Throughout the month I got in some decent runs and my mileage was increasing, but I felt really tired and out of shape. I figured it was just because I hadn’t run that far in a while. I put together a training plan focusing on a few different things throughout training including a few tempo runs, some long runs and some track workouts to switch things up. I gave myself time to get through the sluggy miles with the hopes that things would turn around after getting into a routine. I finally had a great 10 miler mid way through January and thought to myself, okay I’m over the hump!

Screen Shot 2015-03-11 at 9.04.51 AMSomething was just off though. I went to the doctor to talk about how I was feeling and he told me I was 7 weeks pregnant. It was very unexpected but we are very excited! I am due at the end of September. This really explained a lot about how tired I was and how I felt like I just couldn’t get my body to go all of January, which made me feel better. We had our first Doctor appointment at the beginning of February and I asked about running and moving forward with working out and of course, Boston. Everything was approved as long as I felt fine and they were happy I was running and working out regularly already.

Sadly, throughout the entire month of February, things have only seemed to get progressively harder. Every run in SO difficult and I feel like I can never catch my breath. After a not so great 12 miler, I came home and cried. I truly doubted if I could really run Boston and that’s where I seem to be right now. I feel hungover all day, but I’m not throwing up. I gag a lot especially running. Feeling that way for weeks is a little tough and didn’t help with my motivation. I have talked to a few people about it who have run throughout their pregnancy, and many tell me that it gets much easier once you’re in your second trimester. I just entered that stage, so I am hopeful that things are on the up and up and I will be feeling better soon!

B has asked me a lot about when I will make a decision about running the race and I honestly don’t know. It has been the first question everyone we’ve told that I’m pregnant has asked. “What About Boston?” and to be honest, it was one of the first things that crossed my mind when I found out. I know that I was feeling more and more behind and getting discouraged by not being able to get in the miles I was planning. I think the best thing for me to do at this point it start over and work my way up to a long run closer to race day. I know I was hoping to run fast {around my BQ time} at Boston and so my workouts reflected that and I had quite a few long runs in my plan to make me feel confident come race day. I still have time to get in some great runs and I hope that I start feeling a little better and have a little more energy so I can still run Boston comfortably in April! I know at the end of the day, even if I don’t run the marathon, knowing I qualified still means something so special to me, and I have to focus on that.


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From Running to Running Errands

Disclosure: This post was sponsored by Dick’s Sporting Goods. While I was compensated to write a post about Dicks’s Sporting Goods all opinions are my own.

I sometimes feel like I’m always on the go, especially during training for a race because after a run there are so many things to get done in the weekend, from running to practice, to track meets to shopping and family events, there is just always so much going on. Once the miles get longer, there is even less time to accomplish everything. I recently was at Dick’s Sporting Goods and found the perfect running to running errands clothes.


The running clothes are comfortable and I know will hold up well. These Under Armour shorts are super bright and I love the length of them. I recently posted this tank on Instagram but I cannot put into words how much I LOVE this Nike Tank (and they just added 2 new colors!), it has a mesh back and I know will be my favorite thing come summertime. I also got a new sports bra for more support for those lonnnnng runs. Currently, I’m running in the Saucony Triumph shoes which have a bit more support that the Guides and have been helping me while healing from Plantar Fasciitis.

Then, a quick shower later, I’m ready to go. After running, I’m all about comfort. My body is sore and sometimes chaffed and I really don’t want a lot of tight things on, like jeans. One of my favorite sweatshirts, the Adidas hoodie, that is actually my second one, also has my favorite thing, thumb holes and a kangaroo pocket. So, normally, I try to stay away from Nike, but these Nike Pants I’m currently LIVING in. They have the best fit and are so comfortable. Paired up with some New Balance shoes that offer support yet look cute, and a soft Under Armour Sports Bra, I’m ready to run errands all afternoon.

So when you’re looking for a great outfit to run in and one to run errands in, check out your local Dicks for some fun finds.


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Recharging in Big Sur!

For Christmas and Valentine’s Day, B and I agreed to take a trip together to Big Sur to recharge. It was the perfect timing before Track season was in full swing and I am feeling so burned out on running right now that it was a great break to just head out and enjoy time together relaxing.

I have been having some motivation struggles with running and not thinking about it once for four days was amazing and helped me reorganize my priorities. It’s hard when part of my daily job is to motivate over 100 kids to run hard for track when I don’t even have the motivation to run myself. It was refreshing to get away, enjoy some beautiful scenery and reconnect with B. With his schedule I don’t see him as often as a normal relationship, so I know that making the most of our time together is very important for both of us.Vacationing in Big Sur!

We stayed at an amazing place called the Post Ranch Inn and it was incredible. I would recommend it to anyone, anytime. The service, food and attention to detail was exceptional The views from every part of the property were beautiful and it sits on over 93 acres and had tons of hiking trails and walking trails that we enjoyed each morning. Though all week I was worried about the weather, it was perfect when we were there and only cloudy one day. Every morning we enjoyed the complimentary breakfast at the restaurant on the property {they had the best oatmeal I’ve ever had} and throughout the day we just relaxed and I finished up a few books that I’ve been dabbling in. The first night we went to Sierra Mar, the restaurant at the Post Ranch Inn and wow. It was a beautiful sunset and the food was probably the best food we’ve ever had. The service was exceptional.

Staying at the Post Ranch Inn in Big Sur, CAPost Ranch Inn, Big Sur, CA

Vacationing in Big Sur, CAThe next morning after a morning hike and breakfast we went to McWay Falls, and it was gorgeous. We had a picnic lunch there and enjoyed the views even though it was a bit cold. I wish you could get down to the beach there! It was nice to hike around and then we went back to the hotel and got ready for dinner. That evening we went to a different restaurant, Ventana, which was right up the street. The food there was great but we did get there a little past sunset so we couldn’t enjoy the view. It looked like a really cool property though.

McWay Falls, Big Sur, CA

Big Sur, CA

Dinner at Ventana, in Big Sur, CAThe following day we relaxed around the room and slept in. Enjoying breakfast once again and spending the day reading and walking along the trails. Another incredible aspect of the hotel was the infinity spas! The views were amazing and it was so relaxing. That night we went to Sierra Mar again and again it was exceptional. I didn’t want to leave the following morning. It was exactly what we needed and a great vacation. B is already talking about when we will be going back and I’m ready to go anytime! :)

Post Ranch Inn Hiking Trails, Big Sur, CA

Post Ranch Inn Infinity Spa, Big Sur, CA

Post Ranch Inn, Big Sur, CAxoxo

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Riverbed Running & motivation

This past weekend I went out to one of my favorite places to run, the Riverbed. It always is packed full of people out running, walking and biking, even though some of the bikers are rude, it’s nice to run along there and say hello to so many people in the mornings. I’ve been doing my long runs there lately on the weekends because I’ve been doing well doing out and back runs. Now that I am working on getting back into running and beginning training again, I really have been working on my motivation for running and getting back into a routine has been a little difficult, but being consistent has been helping.

Running on the riverbed and regaining motivation

Another thing I do when I’m heading out for a long run is focusing on each mile instead of thinking of all the miles I have to run. This helps a lot doing out and back runs when I think I only have to run 5 miles out and then I can turn around and just have to make it back home. This weekend I did a 10 miler and really focused on each mile. I started with the first mile and then focused on each mile after that instead of being overwhelmed at the distance I had to cover. Around mile 7 I started to feel tired and realized I only had a 5K to go. I split up the last three miles and focused on each of them instead of the fact that I would probably be running for another 30 minutes. When in training, I need to remember that it’s sacrificing some things, but I know it will pay off come race day.

You know you're a runner when Saturday mornings are earlier than Monday. Though running has gotten easier over the past month, I’m still thinking that a marathon is a daunting task! It’s never something to be taken lightly and the distance is to be respected, no matter what. I know I have a few more months to train and I know right now that consistency is key. I do really well when I know I have to do something for “X amount of days”, and I’m the queen of countdowns, so right now I have 69 days until race day and I just need to make these next 60 something days count!


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