This past week, I kept opening up my blog and just had nothing to write. I don’t know why, I had things to say, running was happening and going well and I had ideas but every time I looked at the blank screen all my words just left my mind and I couldn’t write. The week after Ragnar I got in some sweet runs, including two double runs, one with the team and one in the evening with Mary Kate. I haven’t run far in a while and I have been contemplating what is next for me. I know I train well during the summer and love the heat so that’s something I’ve been thinking about. I really wanted to get through Ragnar to make a decision and to figure out where I can go from here. I’ve been running faster and better than I have in years and I feel good running harder paces.
Yet at the same time, track has started to take it’s toll on me. My heart belongs to cross country and the all day track meets are long and draining. When the kids run, I do feel inspired and I love watching them improve when they give it 100%, but when they’re only giving 65%, it’s hard to make myself give 100% to them. I miss cross country and the long miles in the fall. I had to take a moment last week to really reset my mind and remind myself that I need to have patience and be encouraging, just like I always tell the kids to be. I was just not being positive and little things were getting to me. It’s hard to be a coach sometimes!
This Easter was great, we had my family over and though I have been sick with some kind of flu since Friday evening, and now I have an eye infection and am having to wear my glasses until Thursday, I’m looking toward the future and setting new goals. I’m taking time to really make sure I’m ready to commit to whatever the goal may be. We have a few big things happening this year, including my best friends wedding, bachelorette party, bridal shower, four more weddings, I’m working on planning our 10 year class reunion and a big trip to CABO that I’ve been working out a lot for. Though through it all, I know that running will keep me sane and I keep going back to what really will be next. I’m so blessed and I’m so thankful I am able to run daily, and my clear mind tells me that I need it to keep going.
Here’s to figuring out what is next!