Part of me can’t believe that I just typed that number with the word years behind it. I can’t believe it’s been that long since my mom passed away after battling breast cancer for four years.
5 years ago I lost the strongest, most influential person in my life. I never thought my life would be the same. It’s not the same, but I have learned so much and these five years have been five years of growth and discovery. I have learned to love more intensely and cherish those little smiles and things that happen every day. I adore and appreciate so many people in my life who have stepped up and have become role models to me. I know how lucky and blessed I am to have had her in my life for 20 years. I never imagined my life without her and though that’s a reality now, I know she is so proud of me. I still recall the last voice mail I got from her, she randomly called and told me how she was so, so proud of me and loved me so much. I still hear that replayed in my head.
Even though my mom is gone, as my brother said a few days ago, “The best memories you have of her are in your heart, and no one can ever take that away from you.” Though I miss her often, the memories paint pictures of a beautiful friendship and childhood that I was so incredibly blessed with.