I’m not going to lie, yesterday I woke up thinking it was Thursday, and I have never been SO relieved that it was only a Wednesday! I am not looking forward to this weekend, but last night, Tara told me that we’ll be okay, and we are in it TOGETHER. I think I’m not so worried about LA, but the next weekend. The next weekend when I have to do the same thing all over again. I think I’m comforting myself in the thought that people do this all the time.
Perhaps this is all coming to the surface right now because I had another horrible run Tuesday night. Another run I was looking forward too and another one that was pretty much horrible. Many could say don’t worry taper runs are usually bad, which would make sense if I put in solid training.
I know that my maniac sister won’t let me down this weekend and sticking through it together will make for a much more fun time. Then something very sad happened yesterday in Long Beach, and our company has worked with one of the people who passed away in the crash, and my heart hurts for Long Beach and their tremendous losses.
After thinking about that all day, I realized I was being a whiny baby. It’s easy to get caught up in the every day hurry and hustle and bustle and when it comes down to it, I can breathe. I can move. I can love and see colors and learn new things every day. I am lucky enough to run a marathon this weekend! I can laugh with my friends and I am so happy to be alive and as blessed as I am. I have some of the best people in my life and I’m now looking forward to this weekend. I’m looking forward to these awesome girls making me laugh and meeting new people at the expo tomorrow.
It’s going to hurt, but I get the opportunity to do it. As Tara put it, “I haven’t woken up in a long time and not been able to move anything.” So true, but right now I’m going to look forward to that feeling and when I struggle to get up stairs and grip my chair when sitting down I’m going to be happy that I finished another race and had fun with my friends, and I’m lucky enough to hang with these awesome girls two weekends in a row. That’s what running is. It’s for fun, and this weekend, will be a ton of fun.