Welcome back to Adoption April! This post is going to touch on all the facts that I know about my birth parents and how I feel about them, and if I want to meet them and why.
I know my birth mom’s name and my birth dad’s name. There isn’t much information on either of them that my parents collected from them but I am glad that I know their names. I also know their birthdays and I know that she was born in the Midwest.
People always ask me if I want to meet them both or my birth mom. I do! I would love to meet her, and I just haven’t actively pursued it, but I am getting more and more interested in it. I am considering looking more into a private investigator and see what my options are. I know that is expensive though, so that would also take some time. Finding people isn’t the easiest thing in the world. I would also completely understand if she or my birth father didn’t want to meet me though, but I feel that it would be important at this time to get a family medical history report since so many diseases are genetic. I would hope that they would understand that and would be able to give me the family medical report. With that alone I think I would be happy as well.
I know I would be okay if they didn’t want to meet me, because I still think about their situation. Sometimes I wonder what she looks like, and what he looks like, even if they are still together or still talk. I also wonder if I would have any other siblings through either of them. Isn’t that weird to think about? I think that it would be cool to meet them, and see what their lives are like. I don’t want anything from either of them at all, and if they weren’t comfortable with meeting/talking/communication, I wouldn’t force it upon them either. I couldn’t even imagine the shock that they both must have had when I decided to enter the world. I know they didn’t not want me, and I think it would be cool to meet them but I wouldn’t feel rejected or crushed if they didn’t want to meet me.
As of right now, I have no idea where they are, what their lives are like, what they look like, or anything of that matter, but it does interest me. Also if I were to communicate with them, I would understand both of their apprehension if there was some. What would you do if your daughter that you hadn’t seen or heard from in 25 years all of a sudden reached out to you? It would blow my mind. I think there has to be a level of curiousness of both my and her mind though. Is that curiousness enough to pursue communication? I don’t know. Time will tell.
I also realize that they will never replace my parents, and I would never even think that that would happen. I feel that if I was seeking them out because I felt abandoned or like I didn’t fit in with my family, or if I felt unwanted, it would be a different issue, because then I realize that my feelings would be hurt if they didn’t want to have anything to do with me.
I am glad they made the decision to give me up. I have lived such an amazing life with great people in my life and having them unknowingly give me that opportunity gives me the utmost respect for them.
If you have any questions for the next and and last Adoption April post, please feel free to email me at [email protected] I have a few to answer next week. I hope you all have enjoyed Adoption April!
Here’s a funny picture of me and my brother.
Sorry that one is so bad quality! :)